oh lordy.

livejournal!

haven't been here in a while.



i just had to jot this down, so then i can finally fall alseep instead of laying around trying to go back to tomorrow.



1. my cupcake. not his muffin. cupcake. gah. gah. gaaaaaah.

2. brown puppy dog eyes. puppy dog EYES, for crists sake.

3. i look nice today. nice. i look. he said.

4. snuggling in the freaking rain. not exactly kissing, but we'll take what we can get here.

5. he missed me. of all people. me.

6. for a moment, even if it was an altered state of mind, he wanted to marry me.

7. i have nice hair. i kinda already new that, but still.



sad thing is, bad timing. on pretty much every single one.

sadder thing is, not even about the same person.

saddest thing is, it's about like 4 people, and i can't even decide.

i don't want to settle,

but i don't want to be something i'm not.

and i don't want anyone to have to try to hard.

but it can't be too easy.



XO.

prolly a little to incrypted to even remeber what that was about in the morning.

=)





















and that's the way it oughtta be.

This really can't even begin to explain my life in a nutshell.
XO.
<td align="center"> Kandace --
[noun]:

A level headed person who always makes the wrong decision

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

p.s- GREYS ANATOMY IS ON TONIGHT! =)

picture credit: make_my_day
GAH. 
it's nate.
the format love. 
(L)
see.
i told you i'll be missed at that concert.
rofl. 
you're jealous of my paint skills too. 
i can tell.
XO.

oh man. 
tuesday is going to be the worst day EVER.
the format is in mississauga.
i mean like. 
omfg. 
who the hell comes to mississauga?
like no one. 
is who.
anyways.
the point is. 
nov. 7.
which is also tuesday.
in case you're wondering.
they will be playing at Arrow Hall. 
which is like.. 
25 minutes away.
that is INSANELY close. 
but. 
tuesday is a school night.
and wednesday is a school day.
alas. 
i have been told i can not go.
TRAGIC.
i know. 
therefore. 
Tuesday.
is going to be a
HORRIBLE
day.
i can sense these things.
and i'm never wrong.
XO.

Pff. These results aren't too great. but i'll post anyways.
stolen from emotional_emu 
XO.

Since I'm amazing.
I already finished my business assignment,
so i am taking this oppurtunity to post to my lj.
I haven't posted in so so so so long.

anyways, i shall ramble onwards now.
today.
is wednesday.
it feels like friday so bad,
cept for that it hasn't been thursday yet.
and thursdays are the best.
because that's when Greys Anatomy is on.
and that show is def my new fav.
fo shoo.
(L)

anyways. 
(i say that alot, alot don't i?)
ANYWAYS.
i've been debating here to post about my newest obession.
and it's not a show, or a movie.
or a book or a band.
and it's not a hobby or a sport.
and if you can't guess it from that then you're prolly asking all the wrong questions.
for example. 
"what is my new obession?" might not get you the right answer.
haaaa. 
now that i've riddled you out of your brain.
i'm gonna leave you a nice pretty picture.
and some sweet lyrics and consider myself blogged for the day.
XO.


As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came.


p.s- read between the lines.

Hey.
anyways.
for this entry,
i was gonna tell this story.
that is actually a dream i've been having over andover again, every night.
and it's so weird,
because usually i can't remember anything from my dreams.
but every morning i remember more and more.
anyways.
i was going to tell that story.
but.
now i'm not so sure.
now i'm thinking i ramble on as usual.
anyways,
i'll start writing and see how it goes.



XO.

I have two quick things to say. 
One's a fact,
one's a question.

FACT.
When my friends are bitter, they hang around me more.
Once they cheer up/ make up, we never spend as much time together. 

QUESTION.
What do you think the chances are that because i never re-post/re-send those e-mail things but, 
"fill this out and tomorrow your crush will kiss you, if you repost in 3 minutes", that nothing like that ever happens?
Do you think that's likely?
Or just a coincidence?
I should start doing those more. 
Just in case.


XO.

hola. 
before i begin my usual rant and rave,
i'd just like you to note that is post will have absolutely no point
once however.

so anyways. 
i had to post.
to do a little reflective nogastical memory.

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

Two years ago. is so long ago. 
i know, wtf, so random. 
but it really is. 
so i guess in.. another year and a half, everything that went down this summer will be okay too, right?
logically speaking i mean?
so other than being my usual spazztic thing that i do.
everything will be okay.
=)
that makes me so happy. 
go figure that took me.. 14 years, eight monthes to realise. 
=)
happy, happy happy. 

but know what. 
not just happy. 
hmm what's the word.. 
i have no clue..
relieved (?) ..
free, maybe.. 
i dunno. 

anyways. 
i had a 3/4 day today, 
so me and lina we're chillin'.
and i have no homework. 
so that's a plus. 

LONG WEEKEND. 
i'm HELLA excited.
fabrise's house tomorrow. 
shopping and FEAR FEST saturday.
THANKSGIVING sunday.
and relaxing monday.
it's gonna be HELLA GOOD.
i'm sooo stoked.

so i'll TTYL.
LEAVE ME SOME COMMENTS FOOS.
yes, you. 
i know you're still reading.
XO.

HOLA.
Stolen from batty_angel. =)


1. YOUR SPY NAME: (middle name and current street name)
Beth Lakeshore

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy)
Glen Pez

3. YOUR RAP NAME (first initial of first name, first three or four letters of your last name) 
KMan

4. YOUR GAMER TAG: (a favorite color, a favorite animal)
Purple Puppy

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Beth Clarkson

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Rycygobea

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards) 
Hteb Ogylk 

8. PORN STAR NAME: (first pet's name, the street you grew up on)
Jack Lewisham

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automobile your dad drives) 
The Purple Caravan

10. YOUR ACTION HERO NAME: (first name of the main character in the last film you watched, last food you ate)
Harry Sandwich


SO that was cheery.
leave me a comment foos!
XO.

Heyy everyone.
I just  finished a very intense two gruling hours of working on my geography project.
and i'm still only about half done.
sheesh.

anyways. there are a coupla things i've been wanting to write,
but my better judgement has kept me from saying anything
to anyone at all.
which is prolly really unhealthy.
so i'm gonna try to say some of it right now.

Hola.
I am sooo soo soo sooo bored.
I've been on the comuter for like 12 hours in the past 24.
it's insane.
i've been working on this retarded geography project on E.coli in the water in Walkerton.
Which btw.
Happened 6 (almost 7) years ago.
6 Years ago I was 8.
EIGHT.
I think it's safe to say that it's a really lame idea for a project.
But all the things you could pick we're dumb.
Anyways, it's also in french.
Which is what really kills me.
My french is so out of practise.
It's horrible.

I've also been listening to The Fray, How to Save a Life.
Non stop.
i think I'm up to like 30 or 40 plays.
which is insane because I'm obbessed and then in a week i'll hate the song.

He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same

Yesterday I also listened to 47 songs on my phone.
which is hella much for me.
considering I only really listen to it when I walk to and from school.

Okay so now the song changed. It's the format.
who, btw, if you're wondering are still my favourite.
=)

Did i tell you I got new speakers and a new monitor.
They're pretty spiff.
Here's their new video.

So that's bout all i'm gonna say for now.
i was gonna write some really deep stuff.
but it's not worth my time.
plus i must get back to that geography.
XO.
LEAVE ME A COMMENT FOO.

Hola. 
So i'm hella bored.
so i'm gonna post.
because i know we all love when people randomly (and endlessly) ramble when they're bored.
(not.)
anyways. i just remembered a story i was going to tell everyone here, but then i forgot on account of it was a long time ago.
and also i'm a busy lady.
(not, to both of those things).
so anyways. 
i was at Shoppers Drug Mart with my dad, and brother.
who, btw always pick on me (jokingly).
because they say i'm a wimp. even though i'm not.
i'm pretty rough and tough.
(not.)

so anyways.
they had one of those bloodpressure thingys. 
you know.
you stick your arm in it. 
then after it's done it tells you your blood pressure.

so my brother does it.
he gets like low bloodpressure, and average heart rate (even though he has a minor heart condition) 
so right there and then he thinks he's god.
=)

next is my dad.
he goes, and gets nearly the same, just not as good.

so then i decide that i should give it a try.
so i sit down and shove my arm in the thing.
then it goes beep and it starts.
so i'm waiting for something to happen.
and nothing is happening.
so then i try to pull my arm out.
and it latches on like crazy.
so then i go into panic mode, because i mean, it's HURTING my arm!
then i started hyperventailating.
so my heart rate is like through the roof. 
and then i'm like loosing circulation in my fingers.
they're starting to turn blue.
then i can't feel my hand.
then my face is purple.
then i couldn't breathe.
so i'm in complete hysterics.
and the stupid machine wouldn't give me my arm back.
so finally after like 2183712361782345632 hours, it stops.
i pull my arm out (which btw took like 2 hours to regain feeling, and it had nice red lines around it)
and i read the thing.
it says 40-60 is normal and 60-75 is normal high.
then my score starts to count.
20, 40, 50, 55, 60, 70, 75, 80, 82, pause, 85, 87, 91, another pause, 94, 95, 96, 
finally, 
it stopped at 97.
so then i almost fainted because apperently i must have a serious condition.
=) 
then my brother says it was probably just because i was like spazzing out.
but i dunno.
if i suddenly die one day, and never post again.
tell the doctors it was my high blood pressure.
lol.


anyways.
that was my lovely story.
i sure hope it entertained you. 
XO.


p.s- ICON LOVE.
p.p.s- lj friends, i'm sorry if i just clogged up your friends page with pointless stories (OF NEAR DEATH!).
p.p.p.s- i'm off to do my math. 

BYE!

Hola.
this is gonna be a hella boring entry.
but honestly, i have nothing to write.
but i feel bad cause i never post anything.
my life is so lame lately I should prolly try to gte on that.
and actually meet some new people.
you know get out more.
=)
oh well.
anyways i didn't fail my geo test that i "studied" oh so very hard for.
so that's always been to celebrate.
and i'm getting like 10 percentage above average for math.
so i think that's ground for me to just quit school and become a circus person.
i'll end on a high note.
it'll be hella happy.
i say that sooo much now. i think it's hillarious.
but if you think it's annoying then just close your eyes when you read over that part.

anyways. 
i never wrote about what i did on saturday.
it's actually a very fun story.
for ana's birthday we went to the movies with some random Cawthra Park peeps.
we saw the Wicker Man.
which included scary cult people in masks, a large statue made of wood, and a creepy lookin little girl.
it was hella funny.
even if we did almost get kicked out like three times.
pfff.
so then after the movies.
we tried to get into a club.
but then there was a scary bouncer so we ran away.
then we spent like ten zillion hours freezing our asses off waiting for our ride.
but it was pretty darn fun.


so anyways, i'm gonna go,
cause i actually wrote a ton.
surprizingly.
anyways.
XO.

(p.s- ICON LOVE. it's a GA quote. if you don't watch it you won't get it. I also feel the need to showcase my 2 other new icons. cause i'm cool like that.)

 

i know you love them.
(L)
LEAVE ME SOME COMMENTS AND I"LL LOVE YOU FOREVER.